I asked for two fried egg sandwiches
and a blueberry milkshake. I got soup.
And it was raining so instead of trying
again to read “Middlemarch,”
I lay on my side and watched the rain
glide down the window. I used to love
to go outside. My sister was a high school
cheerleader, someone everyone loved
to be around—if anything was good,
it was great. I needed to know. My God
spoke only in doubt. The nerves at the ends
of my fingers never slept, and when my fists
bloodied my forehead, only the comfort
of bandages let me look out across
the parking lot, out over the vans, Audis,
and pick-ups into the trees where I could
see how the leaves held to the limbs.
At home my father stayed alone in his
gardens. My mother carried her knitting
to a neighbor’s and talked about dinner.
First published in Talking River
Subsequently published in Saint Peter
You can hear a conversation about this poem on the Reformed Journal Podcast.
Thank you, RJ, for offering this poem and conversation about it. Love one of the questions that Jack asks as a poetry couch: “Is my poem a turtle crossing a highway?” Appreciated the essay about Jack Ridl that Jeff Munroe wrote not too long ago in RJ. Looking forward to zoom listening tomorrow (October 2, 7 PM) when CavanKerry Press celebrates Jack’s newest book of poetry All At Once. Grateful for poetry’s word play.